Cousin Outing

I had fun. :)

Cousin's Birthday

Happy 17th birthday Moe chan.

p.s. I still remember when I was 17.
God, that was my favorite age (by far).

2012 Bon Odori

A very blurry picture of me. 

I need candy

My friend called when I was in class today to join him to the Big Bang Alive Concert.


In the end, I said no.


The main objection was because of the price.
In order to get the seat that I want, I need to starve 2 months just for that one night.


And I actually went for both F4 and Mariah Carey concerts, when I think back now, I can't even remember a sheer glimpse of that night.


I don't know why am I ranting to an electronic device now.
Maybe I'm lonely.


And sad.


I was doing the right thing, let me rephrase, I chose the best choice at that moment, but I didn't feel nice.


GD was my latest obsession, and I wanted to go badly.
But I'm restricted both financially and emotionally.


I'm pathetic.
Yes, I know.


I hate being financially restricted.
I despise every single second of it.


Like during the last visit to Pavilion with Boyfriend, I said to him " How unfair it is that when I am finally able to afford those clothes ( TopShop ), I would have outgrown them by then ".


Or like those other privilege kids that get to go on to nice school or overseas for their studies.


I envy all these privilege kids.


Okay, I'm done.
I'm done being a whiny b*tch.


Just like the old saying goes, " Suck it up, and be a Man ".
Or be a girl in my case.


I am sucking it up now.

Birthday

Happy 19th birthday TUBBY. :)

p.s. I have attention deficiency.

And I don't know which is worse, having no date or being stood up by a date?

Gmail is killing me

The latest interface of my Gmail.


Damn, is this cute or what?

That girl

I had read countless blog posts, but those that captured my attention has a certain stereotype of either having anything related to pretty things (pretty girls, pretty scenery, pretty bags, pretty furniture, etc) or the author is just downright *insert your own word here*.


And for years, I had strive for presenting the same feeling of those above.


I wasn't born with beauty, but of course do secretly hope to be beautiful one day, I was always the pretty girl's best friend. I have taste for pretty stuffs, but I just couldn't mould up something attractive. So, the first choice was a obvious no-no.


The second option was to write brilliantly, whose words are so interesting that leave you at your seat thinking that words are just enough (a case where the writer can perfectly explain everything by just using words without the necessitate for visual effects). 


But I wasn't one of them. 
I wasn't those type that was brutally honest with their own words.
Oh how I like to say FUCK at any given time any given place.


FUCK FUCK FUCK.
See, that's just not me.


This post is going nowhere.

But if I had the honour to describe myself, I would say that I am that girl that is picky (at everything basically) yet indecisive, that girl that talks too much yet unable to recall any of those previous conversation, that girl that always has a thought for something and yet not always able to put it into comprehensible words, that girl that is afraid of a lot of things (uncertainties, animals, the dark, ghost, pain, scary man, scary women, etc), and that girl that *insert your own word here*.

I sound like a 5 years old girl.


This post is seriously going nowhere.


My first corporate job will be ending in one week time.
And my official tertiary education will be starting in two weeks time.


And I hope that the wave of familiarity will dawn upon me soon enough.


Am going to end this post now. I actually still have tons of thoughts to jolt down like how I enjoyed the attention he had showered on me (not saying that he is Boyfriend, or not), but I feel that a girl gotta keep her own secrets.


So, now I am going to watch Suits and some pretty girl dancing in tight clothes, then I'll take a warm shower. And when I'm done, I'll sit down and write all my secrets into my finally-put-in-good-use-diary.

LiShien's Nature

Went down to Melacca two days back.
This time, it was way fun.


Bought quite a few things.
As the price was MAD CHEAP.


A bag that is too cute to give up.
A Harry Potter glasses (Hi, my name is Harriet Potter. *nerdy-snotty kinda laugh*)
A pair of flippers.
A long white tee.
2 singlets since they go with everything.
4 books.
And a comb since I left mine in YongHuai's car.


p.s. I love to shop.
Hee.
:)

Alicia

My first corporate job.


This is the note I found on my desk this morning when I reach my work station.

Apparently, my name is Little Gal.
Or Alicia for that matter.


LiShien.
LiShien.
LISHIEN.

Which part of that sounds like Alicia?

My Penang Trip

Went on a Penang trip with my foundation friends a week back.


Am gonna post some pictures.
(But most of them were courtesy of Jelly's facebook page)


Lalalala, here we go.

 Second day in Penang. In Butterfly farm.

 Butterfly.

 Friends trying to attract butterfly to their palms by applying honey on it.

 My favourite part of that place, the fish pond. Hee. The water looks chilling.

 There's a mantis standing on just one leg.

 Me and Sally.

Me and Sally. Again.

All 24 of us.

 Then we were at some fruit farm.

 My backside.

 While waiting for dinner.

 While waiting for drinks.

 If you had wonder why most of my shots are closed eyes, well, it's not my fault that I only look good while my eyes are close.

 Third day in Penang. Me and Jelly, courtesy of her sunglasses too.

People taking pictures. Me talking. Oh yeah, we went hiking? Jungle tracking? Can't differentiate between these two.

 People trying to throw me into the sea.

Second attempt. 

 Success.

 What they did to my arm.

 They all continue their water activities while I find something else interesting.

 A little boy who scrap his ankle. 

 My proud face and my square sand castle.

 Dancing our way back to the car while later that night we had barbecue by the beach.

 Just woke up on my forth day in Penang.

Me and Jelly baby.

Sally and I went back on the forth day while most of them stayed till the seventh day instead.

It was way fun. Next time, I wish to go on with S4 they all. Whoops. Did I just say that out loud?

I enjoyed myself. 

My Future is Coming Soon

Today was the last paper.

Now I'm what?

Officially graduated from my foundation programme.

I don't know what to feel. YET.

I think I'm a little dense sometimes.

Anyhow.

Pictures.

 Me (or in this picture, my leg). My notes. My pencil box. In the library.

A few of my friends. I was grinning like crazy because I was perspiring like hell and yet the cameraman was still fooling around.

A few of us are evidently closer to one but not others.

Overall, we did good as a group.

Everyone is going a hundred different direction, but I'm glad I'll have friends that are doctors, dentists and physiotherapists.

HAHAHAR.

I'm thinking way too far now.

I think deep down I'd already miss them.

But the feelings haven't been interpreted by my head yet.

Foundation is gone now.

Degree here I come.

Until September that is.

I'll never have this

I know I'll never buy a camera this kind, but my friend let me had my 15 seconds of ouuuu-I'm-a-photographer.

Ate Snowflakes 3 times this week. Seriously addicted.

p.s. Wanna go Snowflakes with me?


p.s.s. No wonder I got 5 books for the price of 40, it's freaking literature.

Accidental Discovery

Hah!
I felt like I'd just won a lottery ticket.


I was randomly selecting files from my phone and I had just discovered a way to post pictures from my phone.


Oh!
Joy to the world!


May the rumble begin.

 One of the days in the class.

 Me and Jelly baby in the gym room.

Finally, my first ever prom night slash annual dinner. Since I had missed my high school's prom, it was only natural for me to anticipate so much from this annual dinner instead. Danced with so many of my friends. It was AWESOME!

Went singing with JoAnn some time back. My favorite - Janice.

Became one of the bridesmaids for FeiFang's sister alongside with Little Ru and Evan last Sunday. Damn fun.

My future daughter will definitely owns a few traits like Sonia here. SUPER CUTE!

Will be posting a lot more soon since I'd found a way to upload pictures now.


MUAHAHAHA.


Until then.

Capacity to Understand

Ohhhh, how long have I not felt the urge to blog again.
Well, I guess today is my lucky day then.


This is going to be a long post.
You are well warned before proceeding.


Here goes.


To be honest, I wasn't feeling so up to par before the week of Chinese New Year.


Things happened in school.
It was supposed to be a harmless comment but it hit me down faster than you can say 'supercallifragilisticexpialidocious'.
*sorry, that was my nerdy side, can't help but to quote Mary Poppins*


It happened once way back, but I didn't thought much of it and brushed it aside.
When it happened again last week, it made me thought to myself "Is this what people think of me?".


Since it was a matter close to my heart, I was pretty gutted.


It was a thing from the past but things were not that hard back then, and I thought since now I'm in tertiary education, the crowd would be more understanding and less judgmental. But how wrong was I.  


That comment was filled with such judgement, such bias.
It broke my spirits down instantly.
I was struggling for that few days.


I didn't want to consult this with my college friends because I simply doesn't want to bad mouth anyone and I am sure both the comments were not thought thoroughly before being expelled.


Notice how I used "Capacity to Understand" instead of "Capability to Understand".


Then CNY came.
And I felt a little of LiShien coming back to me.
Just enough for me to enjoy myself.


And after yesterday, I felt joyous again.


And I quote myself at Sunday 29/01/2010 12.05am,
"As I am sitting at this table, I look around to see the crowd I'm with tonight. The table was filled with familiar faces. Chatter was audible but I wasn't really paying attention. Suddenly someone said something funny and the whole table cracked up and started laughing with him. And at that moment, I felt lighthearted."


Can you imagine?
Me, feeling lighthearted.


That moment was a real pick me up.
*chuckle*
It was so innocent and so sincere.


The whole week of CNY was jam packed with friends and family and today was the only day I'm sitting at home with absolutely nothing to do.
This year's CNY was way better than I had anticipated.


The first 3 days I had spent it with my family, lounging at the their house or out for a movie with them.


Then the subsequent days of CNY I had spent it with my friends.
Namely Joann and my high school mates.


And I quote myself again at Sunday 29/01/2010 2.35am,
"As I was sitting in the front seat of Loon's car, I felt a wave of gratitude dawn upon me".


Yesh, I am a feeler.
I feel way too much.
That, I'll admit to it.
*chuckle again*


Loon had been so nice by sending me home when every one of them are staying overnight at Hao's house.


I'll admit.
I really like the attention they're showering on me now.
Namely Loong, Loon and Lun.


Not boy to girl attention but good friend to good friend attention.


And I'm really enjoying it to the max now.
Because I know once they have a girlfriend, all of this will be impossible to grasp on to again.


Well, I had rant on for way too long.
I'm coming to an end now.


Thank you Mum and Boyfriend, they'd probably had heard this story way too many times.


Thank you JoAnn for the longest lunch I'd ever had.


Oh, and thank you friends whom I've spent CNY with.
Thanks.
For being there.


I know in the future, words will still break me.
And when it does, I will still break down and cry.


But I know something somewhere will pick me up again.
:)

The Week before CNY

Before I share about my Chinese New Year, I ought to update you about the week before it first.


And I rather write this post mainly because I was having too much fun and neglected the fact that I need pictures to update my blog.


So...
I'll think of a way soon enough.


So here goes.










BUT I'd just found out that I can't upload any pictures because all my pictures are all in the phone's internal storage and I have no idea how to get it out.


So...


I'll give you one of this then.

Happy Chinese New Year.


p.s. I guess I'll do this another time then.
Hee. 
Bye.

Still Shien

Ello.

I really have inefficient creative juice flowing right now, so I'll just write anything that comes into my head.

Why is it so hard to write something spontaneously?

Well, maybe raw emotions are always filter with the presence of an audience.

Anyhow, this week is my week of holiday.

Yesh.

Let me give you a smiley face here.

:)

Monday, were on a trip in Johor Bharu. The hotel (Thistle Hotel) is superbly nice. The glass wall is nice, the ceiling is nice, the decoration is nice, even the stairs railing captured my attention. And there's a candy house in the lobby too. Ya, back to the topic, this picture exhibits my side of the bed in the hotel room.

 Had this really nice soup at JB too. I'd poured white rice in it to complete my little slice of heaven.

 Tuesday, had lunch with Moemi.

Wednesday, had lunch with KTing, YYing and XYing at Festival City. 

 Finally bought my jeans on that day too.

 Had KimChi soup (my favourite) for dinner with mother on Thursday.

 And today, Friday, went for a movie and lunch with JoAnn. I'd try this new Snoopy cafe in KLCC. The environment is my kind of cute. I am so going back there again.

In the evening, I had dinner with CLoong in Full House.

Well, all of the above concluded my weekend.

Can't wait to go back to school to meet with Jay and Sally and Jelly they all.

The fact of enjoying close relations calling me Shien had moved to my subconscious mind.

This week hearing them calling me Shien, just a simple Shien, bought back a lot of emotions.

I'm still figuring why I love hearing people calling me that.

Maybe it shows a sense of closeness since only my family members call me by that.

And sad to say, I am still Shien.

Hee.