I need candy

My friend called when I was in class today to join him to the Big Bang Alive Concert.


In the end, I said no.


The main objection was because of the price.
In order to get the seat that I want, I need to starve 2 months just for that one night.


And I actually went for both F4 and Mariah Carey concerts, when I think back now, I can't even remember a sheer glimpse of that night.


I don't know why am I ranting to an electronic device now.
Maybe I'm lonely.


And sad.


I was doing the right thing, let me rephrase, I chose the best choice at that moment, but I didn't feel nice.


GD was my latest obsession, and I wanted to go badly.
But I'm restricted both financially and emotionally.


I'm pathetic.
Yes, I know.


I hate being financially restricted.
I despise every single second of it.


Like during the last visit to Pavilion with Boyfriend, I said to him " How unfair it is that when I am finally able to afford those clothes ( TopShop ), I would have outgrown them by then ".


Or like those other privilege kids that get to go on to nice school or overseas for their studies.


I envy all these privilege kids.


Okay, I'm done.
I'm done being a whiny b*tch.


Just like the old saying goes, " Suck it up, and be a Man ".
Or be a girl in my case.


I am sucking it up now.