Holiday

Went for a meeting about choir status yesterday after school.

Wooo... Reality really hit you in the heart hard.
Still couldn't get an answer from my head.
Still would like to hit my head with a stick.

That why I'm so determine that this coming holiday, I'm going to enjoy myself EVERYDAY. Although I had said that I'll tell them(fellow choir members) my decision of should we go on before this holiday ends, but I really want to clear my mind right now.

Lately I would go to bed very very early. Isn't that shocking? I used to be a night owl, and I wouldn't be sleeping until it's 2 or 3 in the morning.

If I got time, I would go to my bedroom and put on DOngBang oppa(DongBangShinKI) music on out loud.

Hey, I really find that this way really work, when you turn up the volume of any music, it's very loud, that way you can't hear yourself think. You're forced to listen to the loud music. That way, maybe I'll feel better. You can even scream or shout in your room coz no one will hear you under the loud music. Good idea right?

Then I would go to sleep.

Feel like now I'm watching the world pass me by but with the volume turn down. Didn't know that I was that weak. I really don't want to to anything except for sleep. I really don't know what to do right now.

p.s. Thanks anonymous for your message, but I still don't know what's right now.

Happy holidays everyone.

(This is the most lousy near-birthday-days in my life. Really though that no one would remember my birthday.)