Hate Goodbyes...

Nothing special. Went to school. Went for tuition. Came back home.

Initially I wanted to write a long post but this is the first time that I don't have the feeling to write anything at all. What's wrong with me? Feel like crying now... All these things happening to me lately is really eating me up... God, I'm just a teenager, heck a kid even. Don't you think that giving me all these tasks for me to accomplish is just too much for me? I would really want to find a place and hide in there. Give me time to heal...

I couldn't get hold of what's important to me and yet I'm still working my butt off to please everyone that's around me. Wake up! WONG LI SHIEN! Wake up! Why am I always letting what means the most to me walking away? This is just too much... Too much! Too much for me to bear. What do you think I am? A robot? Or do you think that I'm a child who doesn't think much? Come on, I'm a human, no matter how strong I am, that doesn't mean that I'm IMMUNE to pain all right? God, what is wrong with me? Oh my... Why am I even talking like that?

Stop bugging me. I don't know how to pretend to care for someone when I don't. I totally knows what event tomorrow is. I clearly choose not to.

I can't even hold onto things that belong to me, what more can I do? I'm so useless. No more compensating from now on...

那有过的是什么?
心里的忐忑用力抱着慢慢就会好的...
双手还有热......
时间跟我说会好的...

Staring at the clear blue sky, thinking what exactly had I lost.

I stand by my decision.

我会勇敢抱着.