I'll be

To whom it may concern(it already seems too obvious who is this for):

I'll be your crying shoulder.

I'll be love's suicide.

I'll be better when I'm older.

I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

I love you too.

:)

This is for How Jia Mei~~~

Wanna write this down before I forget about it.

This morning, I sms and told Mei about how scared I am about tomorrow's performance. Ya, I'm damn scared! Heck, I'm even very SCARE right now. Okay, first of all, I'm not scare of the audiences that will be there tomorrow. I'm actually scare of Amanda and another guy. I'm scare that I'll sing badly in front the both of them.

It's not that I don't want to do this performance, it's just that I don't have the courage to do it. A lot had happen between me and Amanda, and to know better, go on to "A little too late-1st of July" post. I had explained everything there. Mei instantly sms me back" 'JiaYou' lar, I'll be cheering for you. No need to be affraid of the both of them". I CRIED seeing this sms. I was like sitting in Coffee Bean having breakfast with my mother, and the next moment, I'm hugging my hand phone crying like a mad girl. The family on the next table probably thought that I'm crazy.

I was so touched seeing this message. Although it's very simple, but I could really feel Mei's good intention towards me. I was always so careful when I'm around Mei. I'll be watching what I said, what I do, every step I take, coz I was so afraid that Mei will walk out of my life just like what Amanda do. I'm even hurt saying this now. I'll be so careful so that the history won't happen again to me. I don't want to lose another best friend again. But this time, it's like Mei is saying "No need to worry, I'll not be going anywhere".

For MyMei (*＾ー＾)ノ
"I got to 'hola' about my Mei, full amazing. Let's see, where should I begin? I was really touched seeing your message. Huh, I know now you'll be thinking 'Aiyoo, don't cry again lar'. Hah, sorry ya, I couldn't control my own tears. Sorry for hurting you so much last year during that Amanda incident. I really hate myself back then. It's like I'm so damn stupid. You're always saying that I've been giving so much to you, and you couldn't even repay me. Actually it's Mei who have been giving so much, so much to me. You were always there when I was weak. I had gone through so much, and during that time, you pretended nothing was wrong and was cheering for me all the time. Friendship don't come easily.

Even though there will be time when I don't even have the mood to speak to you, but I still want to be by your side at that time. Nah, I want to be with you all the time. You really make my life shine. I want to be your strength just like you are to me all the time. Together we stand, I'll be by your side. With you by my side, I'll fight and defend. I'm here for you~~~ I can grow strong with you by my side.

Never going to let you go we are both so deep in this. Not a second I regret, gonna cherish all of it. I'll never ever hurt you. Without you, there's no life in me. This love got me proud to show it. Ain't no doubt, I'll keep on holding. And it's on till forevermore, well, on and on, you know we have each other back.

If you look carefully, you can see that the two of us are wearing the same clothes.

I'm so scare that this will all disappear in a blink an eye. You're important to me. Love, love my Mei, always have, always will."

p.s. I am big sister (haha, because my birthday is earlier than yours), that's why I'll protect you.

p.p.s Tomorrow will be all right right?

Wanna go to the ZOO with me?

ShieN aka 'lil' SiS

Dang Dang DANG~~~ Curtains pulling up, yup, and you can see... Hah! ME!!! Sorry for such lame intro, haha, I'm a bit out today. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~~ o(^▽^)o

Shien=Little Sister

Yup, that's me~~~

I'm so hyperactive in class today and I don't even know why. I'm like literally jumping up and down today. How ironic coz I'm really jumping up and down all day. And Man expression is like "No eye look... (￣_￣ i) ". Hah! Sorry ya~~~

TODAY~~~
I like to use the word "funny" the whole time and I guess this phrase kinda stuck on most of my friends, KahLun decided to turn it a bit, so now I'm BUNNY HEAD~~~ Hah!!! )｀ε´(　What kind of name is that? And KahLun does know how to spell bunny, whoa~~~ Amazed~~~ I'm clapping for you right now~~~~~~

I was going through Man's wallet today, and she put the picture of the two of us in the picture area there. So, when you open up her wallet, you could see the both of us there. And don't know what reason, the colour in the 'da tou tie' is like fading. I was like " What the? What is this? Why is the picture dirty dy?" And my forever cute Man (^∇^) said:" Ya lor, time to take 'da tou tie' again". Wah~~~~~~ Really TOUCHED!!! She want to go take picture with ME. AGAIN. Hah~~~ Isn't that a good thing to know? I really like talking to you, you let me see a whole new point of view in everything. You 'open' my eyes~~~ I'm really not jealous of your 'ten super'. Okay... Okay lar... I guess I'm a little jealous... Just a little bit... But I'm more happy that you could found a bunch of friends that you like that much~~~

Mei, haha~~~ I really love you very much. (〃∇〃) Haha~~~ The two of us are like hugging, and as you know me, I couldn't stay still, so my whole body was like moving around and when we are about to hug, we accidentally KISS each other. Haha~~~ Ya, the two of us are like laughing like hell after that. I mean, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to move around. Well, it's not the first time actually, this is the second time, the first time, Mei accidentally kissed my cheek. Hah! Ewwww~~~ The two of us are so gross... Well, WE ARE NOT LESBIAN for sure. We're just best friend~~~ And I decided to keep my hair long now after MEi tied my hair for me today. Mei was like:" Shien, your hair is real messy, come, I tie it again for you." Owhh~~~ That scene was so powerful to me. TOUCHED again~~~ I will keep my hair now~~~ But honestly, that time, it's real funny watching three person doing my hair~~~

I like to collect tissue from the toilet. And today while I was eating before going to rc, I want to buy the lychee drink and I have one dollar and I'm short of 20 sen. I saw YetFeng. I asked him for the 20 sen. He was like:" Huh? You want to go turn the tissue in the toilet again ar?" NO! I want my lychee. He knows about my habit coz we have been in the same class for the last three years. Unfortunately, he doesn't have the 20 sen. I borrowed from other people and I went for rc. RC class was canceled today, when I was walking to the canteen with Man, we bumped into YetFeng again. He asked me to hold out my hand. I does exactly what he said, then YetFeng drop something into the both of my hands. And looking into it, it's 4 20sen = 80 sen. Oh my... Triple TOUCHED!!!!!!! (Ｔ▽Ｔ;) Thank you ar~~~ But I'm not going to turn tissue lar... I wouldn't use the 80 sen until the day I die... I'll keep it in my memorable section~~~

Well, actually that's more, but it's all small things that make out the big moments~~~ Haha, too much thing happen today. Well, overall, it's smooth and fun.Thank you all for always taking care of me. Ya, this time, it's my turn to protect you all for now!

Don't you just love LOVE?

Am I On your Mind?

Sunday, Sunday~~~

Woke up to have breakfast with mama today at Coffee Bean. Again. It was nice. After bathing, went to Bridget house to teach her BM. Bridget was very happy today, she keep on laughing, or am I the one who's funny? I like teaching her~~~ Then went to 1u with mama. Again. Went to bought some clothes. Now home.... Um, going to school tomorrow. What's new?

Wanna say something on my mind, hope that all my friend will see this. Well, you know how always I don't reply to the sms. Well, it's not that I don't want to reply you. it's just that I always put my phone beside my bed table in my room. And when I go out, I won't bring my phone. During the day time, I'm always doing my own things. Like watching the tv, playing the computer, my piano, sleeping, daydreaming and so on... And when I have the time to relax, it's already past midnight. That time everybody has fallen asleep, I wouldn't reply at that time coz I won't want to wake you up.

So, now you know why I seldom reply the sms. If, and it's just if, I'm on your mind, please continue 'sms'ing to me. Don't stop all the sms, I always keep you all's sms if you all don't know. It's not that I don't care or that I'm cold. I will try to reply the messages more often from now. Hit the send button instead of the delete button when you see my contact number. You all are on my mind always.

(^O^)/ Sms me ya~~~

Don't stop CARING!