Capacity to Understand

Ohhhh, how long have I not felt the urge to blog again.
Well, I guess today is my lucky day then.


This is going to be a long post.
You are well warned before proceeding.


Here goes.


To be honest, I wasn't feeling so up to par before the week of Chinese New Year.


Things happened in school.
It was supposed to be a harmless comment but it hit me down faster than you can say 'supercallifragilisticexpialidocious'.
*sorry, that was my nerdy side, can't help but to quote Mary Poppins*


It happened once way back, but I didn't thought much of it and brushed it aside.
When it happened again last week, it made me thought to myself "Is this what people think of me?".


Since it was a matter close to my heart, I was pretty gutted.


It was a thing from the past but things were not that hard back then, and I thought since now I'm in tertiary education, the crowd would be more understanding and less judgmental. But how wrong was I.  


That comment was filled with such judgement, such bias.
It broke my spirits down instantly.
I was struggling for that few days.


I didn't want to consult this with my college friends because I simply doesn't want to bad mouth anyone and I am sure both the comments were not thought thoroughly before being expelled.


Notice how I used "Capacity to Understand" instead of "Capability to Understand".


Then CNY came.
And I felt a little of LiShien coming back to me.
Just enough for me to enjoy myself.


And after yesterday, I felt joyous again.


And I quote myself at Sunday 29/01/2010 12.05am,
"As I am sitting at this table, I look around to see the crowd I'm with tonight. The table was filled with familiar faces. Chatter was audible but I wasn't really paying attention. Suddenly someone said something funny and the whole table cracked up and started laughing with him. And at that moment, I felt lighthearted."


Can you imagine?
Me, feeling lighthearted.


That moment was a real pick me up.
*chuckle*
It was so innocent and so sincere.


The whole week of CNY was jam packed with friends and family and today was the only day I'm sitting at home with absolutely nothing to do.
This year's CNY was way better than I had anticipated.


The first 3 days I had spent it with my family, lounging at the their house or out for a movie with them.


Then the subsequent days of CNY I had spent it with my friends.
Namely Joann and my high school mates.


And I quote myself again at Sunday 29/01/2010 2.35am,
"As I was sitting in the front seat of Loon's car, I felt a wave of gratitude dawn upon me".


Yesh, I am a feeler.
I feel way too much.
That, I'll admit to it.
*chuckle again*


Loon had been so nice by sending me home when every one of them are staying overnight at Hao's house.


I'll admit.
I really like the attention they're showering on me now.
Namely Loong, Loon and Lun.


Not boy to girl attention but good friend to good friend attention.


And I'm really enjoying it to the max now.
Because I know once they have a girlfriend, all of this will be impossible to grasp on to again.


Well, I had rant on for way too long.
I'm coming to an end now.


Thank you Mum and Boyfriend, they'd probably had heard this story way too many times.


Thank you JoAnn for the longest lunch I'd ever had.


Oh, and thank you friends whom I've spent CNY with.
Thanks.
For being there.


I know in the future, words will still break me.
And when it does, I will still break down and cry.


But I know something somewhere will pick me up again.
:)

The Week before CNY

Before I share about my Chinese New Year, I ought to update you about the week before it first.


And I rather write this post mainly because I was having too much fun and neglected the fact that I need pictures to update my blog.


So...
I'll think of a way soon enough.


So here goes.










BUT I'd just found out that I can't upload any pictures because all my pictures are all in the phone's internal storage and I have no idea how to get it out.


So...


I'll give you one of this then.

Happy Chinese New Year.


p.s. I guess I'll do this another time then.
Hee. 
Bye.

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双子座
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巨蟹座
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狮子座
最守时，最主观，最会告白，最喜欢热闹，最不会讨人欢心，最自恋，最重自尊，最输不起，最爱出锋头，最喜欢指挥别人，最自信最讲义气，最有保护欲，最没有秘密，灾难中最不冷静，最暴躁，最怕寂寞，最光明磊落，最易被理解，最喜欢穿彩色衣服。


处女座
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天秤座
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天蝎座
最神秘，话最少，最多美女，最有判断力，生气时最可怕，最好色，最易羞涩，翻脸最彻底，占有欲最强，最大男人主义，最阴险，最会记恨，最喜欢黑色，最不易上当，最会口是心非，最怕吵，最会保秘，最会做生意，最深谋远虑，最不相信人性，最性感，最讲义气，最会挖秘密，最适合做007。


射手座
最诚实，最会运动，最不修边幅，最不会记恨，最不会口是心非，最好赌，最怕无聊，最爱往外跑，最会丢三忘四，最拿得起放得下，最乐观，最易犯罪，最不会烦恼，最禁的起玩笑，最会临时抱佛脚，最快乐，最有肚量，最会伤人心，最不重视纪律，最不会判断是非，动作最快，最大而化之，最喜欢刺激，最不会看脸色，最容易交到坏朋友，最多帅哥，最爱好和平，最会突发奇想，最不重视精神层面。


摩羯座
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水瓶座
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双鱼座
最浪漫，最爱撒娇，最易被骗，最易神经质，最不势利眼，最念旧最爱幻想，最有书卷味，最不会保秘，最多嫁入豪门，最好辩，最不守时，最多夜猫族，记忆力最好，最会讨人欢心，最悲观直觉，最准，最常作鬼脸，最有服务欲，最易养成说谎习惯。