This is for Me

When I first started my blog, I had full intention to turn it into some Fashionable Girl or even a Cute Girl blog.


But what the heck?


Got the results for the competition that I said I'd entered in the last 2 post.


I didn't get it.






Yeah, this sucks.


I feel like such a fool.


And what hurts more is the fact that I see this competition so highly.
I thought this competition would send my self esteem rocket high.
But it actually bury me deeper than where I was.


I really thought I had a chance with this.
*chuckle* With my killer dress.


But...
Maybe I wasn't good enough.


But, for now, I'm all right.


I am giving myself a rest right now.



Am certainly not trying to publicly humiliate myself even further.
But I want this post to serve as a remind to myself.


That no matter how sucky thing is, the sun will still rise tomorrow.
I know that everything is still going on.


Time is still ticking.
Demi's song is playing unless I hit the pause button.


Even a more cliche quote,"the earth is still rotating".


But for now, I am giving myself a rest.


Away from Books(heh, such lame excuse not to study), Phone, Internet.


And even away from my own thoughts.


Yeah, it might hurt more that what I had expected in the chest.
But heck, everything is still moving on.


I'm just gonna go lay in my bed now.


And maybe, just maybe.
Pause my feelings for now.