If I don't need you why am I crying on my bed?
If you're not mine, will I have the strength to stand at all?
I don't know why you're so far away.
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it.
I don't understand.
Cause I miss you.
Body and soul so strong that it takes my breathe away.
And I breath you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today.
Cause I love you.
Whether it's wrong or right.
Though I can't be with you tonight.
You know my heart is by your side.

I am so sorry, I'm really not interested in any sort of communication.

p.s. I really have a pronounced tendency to want to hear you more, see you more, meet you more, just want you more. Thus resulting me shutting off my phone and blocking off all sort of communication.

p.s.s. Every time I wanted to call you, I bit my tongue and tell myself not to bother you. Crying myself to sleep every night has become a standard procedure.