All BS(BullShit)!

So what?
So what I'm not like her?
All sweet and warm and innocent.
I'm still me right?
I'm still a human being.
Respect me as a human being.

And saying that I'm COLD,
that doesn't change a thing.
SHIT!
I'm not freaking Mother Teresa who is warm and kind to EVERYONE.
And I'm not someone who ACT like I care.
If I don't give a shit,
I literally DON'T GIVE A SHIT!!!
I don't act like I care just to make someone fall in love with me.
Now that's not COLD, that's a good grace of knowing when you're honest and when you're not.

Now if you don't like me,
just walk away or stay out of my life.
Do not compare me to her!
Coz last time I check, she was just a pretender.

You think I'm cold?
Yup, damn right you got it.
I'm cold to bastard like you all.
I'm not someone who treats guys better than I treat my own girlfriends.

If you wanna like her, go on.
It's fine with me.
Don't come back and tell me how great is her or how nice is she.

If you can't handle my attitude, don't bother me.
I don't act in front of people.
I am what you see with your eyes.

I don't need to go on and ask guys out for a date just because I want them to like me.
Now whose the bitter one now?

p.s. That girl, on the other hand, I don’t know. Natural consequences, baby. Are you sure you’re my replacement because I didn’t see you in his rebound girls catalogue.

p.s.s. Don't feel sorry for me. I'm getting along with my life just fine.

You think this post is too HARSH?
That's LiShien for you.
(*^ー^)ノ

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!!!

Huh? Why?

Why? Why? WHY?

Why didn't you tell me about this?

How long have you been doing this?

Huh?

So you were reading my blog the whole time

and it didn't stirred up your conscious to tell me:

"Shien ar, I'm reading your blog."

WTF?

WHat is this?

You know how shocked I am

when I found out

that you were reading my blog

the whole time?

I'm DAMN PISSED OFF right now.

DOn't do this to me again.

Stop reading my blog

and keeping a secret about it!!!

And how do you even know my blog add?

Really! Don't DO THIS AGAIN!

( and you're not the first )

Sometimes DEVIL=Me

Today was quite okay the whole day. Feels good to have friends around you all day~ Until three something when it was about time for me to walk to my tuition center... And ehwww....... Saw something I really don't like.

Cheater and Cheatee... Hmmm? What's the difference? Wow~~~ I myself don't even know it. Coz you're both. I don't know. Natural consequences, baby. This time should now prove you wrong, so go away, leave me the hell alone. I wouldn't say someting like:"混蛋！我一定会干掉你的，看你拽到什么时候!". No, I'm classy, you see.

Hehem, I have nothing more to say. o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

Ohhh~~~ And one more thing.

Are you sure you’re my replacement because I didn’t see you in his rebound girls catalogue.

What's Going ON?

Shit, I'm damn shocked with Man today. She's obviously upset with something, and I went to comfort her, and all I get was:" Go away, leave me alone". Okay, not that I blame her for being so, coz she was really upset, but huh? After a few attempt of trying to be close to her, I got like so frustrated in the end.

Really want to shout out:" What's GOING ON???"

What happen o? I know that the first book have something in it, but the second book too? Huh? Don't know how to talk to Man, don't even know how to comfort her coz I don't quite know what's really going on. I really want to know, what's in there that got her so upset after the guys saw it. I was at that scene when they all open and saw it, I thought that it was some jokes or something Man wrote that made them laugh... Guess I was wrong.

Man ar, what happen? I know that you want to be alone, but at least let me be by your side when this kind of thing happen. Of course I know that you're strong, but even strong people get hurt sometimes, I mean, what I'm trying to say is that, I'm here for you no matter what happen. Feels like I'm not someone that matter to you when all of this thing happen. Want to let you know I'm always be by your side. No ones want to be alone...

I'm hurt to see Man get hurt. I know you don't want to talk about it with me, but at least please don't push me away. What can I do? Play my 'friend' role perfectly and stay quiet. Man, you can really lean on me sometimes.

(ﾉ_-｡) Sorry I couldn't protect you from this harm.

Blowing up the issue

Putting previous post into context.

Stupid little ***!!! You sure know how to blow things out to epic proportion, do you? I found out, recently, however, that the guy who had confessed his feeling to me, told his friends and quite the whole class that I was the one who 'chase' him first. WTF? Σ(･ω･;

He said that I was the one who sms him first. Well, let ME freaking explain myself here. That day, we were suppose to celebrate Tim's birthday and him transferring to our school. And I found out that he was not coming the next day where we are going to celebrate. So, I took his number and went on sms him. So, that's called HITTING ON someone? WTF? I'm the class organiser!!! So now I am a scorned friend writing this blog post explicating everything. It’d be unfair, and because it’ll influence the way you look at him too, so whatever that falls under his section will just be described neutrally.

So now you're using humiliation as a weapon towards me? How dare you? ARGHHHH!!! Why isn't anyone seeing the story from my side? Just because I didn't accept him so now I'm the bad one? What about the story from my side? Does anyone care to know? No, I don't think so. To care for your big manly image, you're telling others the other story. MY GOD! You freaking misread all the signals I was sending to you. No, I learned my lesson now. I'll not going to sms or reply to any guys from now on. No way I'm going through this again.

Get your facts right before spreading rumours about someone, a-hole.

Not Looking!

Wednesday~~~

Um, today was quite usual. Went to school and tuition. Running out of ideas to write dy. Oh my... And I'm just only starting... Haha, well today was okay overall. Saw something I didn't quite like after my computer class. Y(＞_＜、)Y Yup, I'm not looking. I'm not LOOKING! And you know what? I don't even care about it. Coz deep down I know that you sure feels that your life is going on so wrongly. Well, back to the point, today was okay, I was so tired, I slept in the last two lesson. S2, S3 and S5 was celebrating birthday in their class, I want to celebrate too~~~ When will s4 celebrating again? Ayee~~~

And now Korean time again, yesterday was introducing yourself to others. Well, today is telling others what country are you from. Let's start.

1. DangSinEun EoNeu NaRa SaRamImNiKka? - Which country are you from?
2. JeoNeun Malaysia SaRamImNiDa- I'm a Malaysian.
3. DangSinDo Malaysia SaRamImNiKka?- Are you a Malaysian too?
4. AnNiO, Malaysia SaRamI A NimNiDa. - No, I'm not a Malaysian.

I think that my memory is going slow lately coz I can't seem to remember anything that had happened to me if it's not that important. And I seem to forget things easily. Oh my... What could have cause it? Oh my... Could... Could it... No... No way... Could it be my excessive intake of salt? I know I sure like salty things, and I can't live without them, but salt makes your hair fall but not slowing down your memory intake. Could it really be SALTY FOOD?

゛(｀ヘ´#) You ain't breaking me down again.

ARGHHH!!!!!

Hmm um... Let me start with a better tone. Okay... Today is Monday. Went to school. After the perhimpunan, me and Man stayed in the pengawas room to do the maths homework coz obviously we did not finish it.

Then it was recess time, WaiKen was mimicking me. He's very funny. Crazily funny~~~ Time to get back to class to get on with the lesson. Don't know when, Geetha moved all the tables in our class into a row. I mean all the tables are lined up in one line with no space in between. There were five rolls, I guess. Or four. It was fun. I like it, coz it's the first time in my life I get to sit so close with two of my best friends. Man was on the left hand side and MEi was on the left. Haha, I like that kind of feeling very much. Friends, friends, friends.

Somewhere between the last lesson, I asked LIMZHIYAN to teach me physics in a sweet way and he replied me in a lcly way. ARGHHHHGHHHHH!!!!! And at one time, I couldn't stand him anymore. He was sitting a few rolls behind me, so I turn my back and I just slapped the table, and said in a very loud way:" Do you think that you're the only one that can be so good in Physics? huh?!!! This coming test, if I get higher scores than you, you must ADMIT that I'm better than you". He didn't say anything, he just keep on smiling. Urgh... My blood is boiling.

After school, TeckKiong keep telling me to apologize to ZhiYan. What the? For what? He asked me to apologize to ZhiYan so that I don't need to compete with him. No! No! NOOOO!!!! No in a million years. What the? How can I take my words back when I said it already? I stand by my own words. Although I do admit that I'm quite regretting now. Oh my... What am I going to do? He got like A1 and I got like d. How am I suppose to fight with that?

Beside that, really glad that Geetha is not angry anymore. She just like her usual self today. Haha, Yay~~~

Add on- Ya, I know I'm lousy, and I know that nobody will be rooting for me win on this bet. That's why I have absolutely nothing to lose. Even if I can turn back time, I would choose to say all those words again. There is no turning back now. I really do want to try.

The important thing isn't about winning, it's about making a difference. Haiz.. Maybe I really am CRAZY...

Physics and that crazy LimZhiYan, BRING IT ON!!!

Try. Try. Try.

Sleeping?

Let's talk about yesterday first. I slept at four something after playing 'The Sims 2', then I woke up at 8 to meet with HueyYi to go out with her. Haha, yup, my eyes are so swollen and red. I wish to stay home since it's a Monday holiday. After singing k, I quickly contact papa to send me from ts to Sunway to meet with s4 the all. I got stuck in the traffic jam for one hour and the half. Crazy thing. When I got there, there was Loong, YinYing, YongHuai and KahLun. Haha, s4, four of them. Haiz, heard they many of them fly aeroplane. Felt sorry for the four of them that went on the outing. When I got to Sunway, it was already five something, then the five of us went to eat Sushi King. It was fun and funny as usual. Afterwards, went back home. I reached home at about eight something. I thrown myself to bed and slept as much as I like in my dirty clothes. When I open my eyes, it was about four something in the morning dy. I slept the whole day. Haha, and the whole day at school I felt so energetic. Went to school as usual. It was okay. Me and Mei decided to skip rc, got to came back earlier. Good day~~~

YinYing- sorry ya I didn't reply your sms, and I know that you're worried to death about my whereabouts, but I'm okay lar, I can take care of myself de. I was asleep when you sms me. I only saw your sms this morning. Sorry ya...

Loong- do not give up hope. I truly believe that by the next outing, there will be more people. More than 5. um, 6? Yup, 6 will do. I'm okay with that number. Then the next next outing it will add 1 more people. Then it will be 7. Then 8. What am I talking about? Ayee~~~ Just believe in them will do~~~

p.s. Someone say something very hurtful to me today, "Shien, you want to become a wedding planner right? Then it's okay. You just need your English to be good. The other subjects you don't need to care......" The conversation is longer but... That is totally not comforting. What the? What o? That's so discrimination. What's wrong being a Wedding Planner? And what's wrong with my results? Okay... You want to say until like that. I'll impress you by the end of the term. I'll strive to the front! Just wait and see!!! You got me angry now!

Let me fully recover. My condition now is even worse than yesterday. My voice had totally change. Oh, no. I want to sing. And skate.

Going CRAZY. Maybe. Maybe.

Stop IT!

Let's get straight to the point. Stop it. Come on, don't you have anything better to do with your time? Stop playing with me or I'll give you something REAL to play with! Stop messing with me and get out of my hair. Fine, I'll play along with you. That's what you want all along right? Wish come true for you...

Sorry for what I said juz now. No need to care about it. Juz some lame people getting on my nerves. Haha, morning, went to school as usual. Did my maths homework before I went to switch on the lights. Our malay teacher was absent today. Chinese, we were copying some essay. Before recess, I went for the toilet for some business and when I was done, all of my ahli was waiting for me. Sorry ya~ Today, got scold by the students. I was juz walking by, and they just shout at me for no apparent reason. Come on! Did I kill you mother during past life? I was just doing my job. Enough with it. Went back class for moral. Then Chemistry, we(me, man, yinying & yuanhao) did some very cool experiment today. It was fun. Then the last two period was english. We studied 'the necklace'. I quite like this story coz it tells us that one small decision can change your whole life. Yup, that's true. Went for computer class after class. Then ate with TeckKiong, YinYing and KahYan. It as fun talking to you all. Went for tuition after that. Went back home with XueEr by bus.

Man- Hope that you didn't misunderstand anything that had happened today. It means a lot to me for you to believe me coz you're my best friend. You can ask me anything you want to know about.

Mei- same to you too. Hope you believe me what that had happen today. I'm so speechless already.

XueEr- cheer up! He's a jerk anyway. Thanks for always listening to me too.

My fortune today is-'Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes'. So true. This is so so so true! Yup, I'll learn from my mistakes and I'll surely to keep my mouth shut the next time.

Ahli of kumpulan 3(pengawas)- Sorry that I'm such a weak leader. I couldn't protect you all from the 'bad guys' today. I know I couldn't be confused, because if I'm confused, who is going to lead you all? I'll be strong for you all. And I'll protect you all because I'm your leader!

What an lousy day. Oh my god. I need strength to move forward. Tired of being played by other people. What choice will I make?

p.s. I'm so mad, but I wouldn't give up that easy!