I was

I saw this phrase once back then, and only now I had a clear grasp of its meaning.


"Suffering are caused by presence of choices".
(Might be something closer to this, can't really remember the full sentence)


Ha Ha Ha.
I am doing those kind of slow laugh that you see in a movie where the protagonist is experiencing those yeah-I told-you-so moments.


I should have been grateful as chances are not a everyday thing.


But I was greedy.
I wanted everything and everything.
(Yup, not an optical illusion, I wanted everything and everything, heck, I WANT everything and everything)


But to really inject the reality.
I was actually biting off more than I can chew.
I was trying to outsmart myself.
I was scheming something where in a given situation, I could have all I want and in my way too.


But somehow, just like a great someone said before, "Be prepare for the unexpected" and "You can't always have what you want".


So, tonight, I'll take a warm shower and rest.
And by tomorrow, I would consider all the choices given and finally make my stand.


p.s. I like the fact that today when Boyfriend was giving me some feedback, I was not abruptly offended. I want people to think and to know that I actually can take in constructive feedback.
(But in a sweeter way please. Hee.)


So, I am about to take baby chews instead.