[Insert your heart here]

I've been waiting for a reason (pictures) to update my blog, but this couldn't wait any longer.

I saw a manual camera and it caught my eyes straight away.

I bought it without second guessing.

I went home and told him my excited news.

He started to act strange on the phone.

He wasn't quite pointing out what he's trying to say out loud.

He didn't respond according to my expectation.

We fought.

We cried.

We made up.

We cried even more.

See, I thought it would be a sweet gesture to take pictures of the both of us because we haven't taken much picture together.

And since he'll be going overseas later, I figured why not make some memories now.

But understand, he didn't like it because he didn't like being reminded that he's going away soon.

I hate this.

I hate how deep the both of us had gone.

The deeper you go,

The more heart strings you tangle,

And even the smallest emotion could cause the biggest strum.

Just like guitar, if you only had two strings, the sound you strum on wouldn't be that loud.

But how about twenty strings together?

Or even two hundred strings?

I hate promises.

And I couldn't bring myself to promise anything to him too.

None of us can proclaim the future.

But here, now.

It's not a silly little moment.

This feeling is too true to ignore.

See, how we fell in love is totally in god's hand.

But how we stay in love, I can say that most of it is from his constant effort.

So, Lim Zhi Yan.

I'll be your wish.

I'll be your love.
I'll be your hope.

I'll be everything that you need.

And I'll be better when I'm older.

I've always been afraid to show affection to him publicly.

Because I always thought that it would jinx our relationship.

But.

This is all for now.

What happen next will be another story.

Even if we don't end up together.

I'll still have this beautiful set of memory and past emotions.

"Good night", I heard myself said.

"I love you", his soft voice filled my ear.

"I love you too".

And the rest, they say is history.