Shien Now

This post is totally unpredictable.

Speaking from my point of view.

I just wanna write down what I feel now as to put a lock on this feeling.

Now, I'm feeling really happy.

Not exactly happy happy.

But contented happy.

I was walking around in my room to dry off a layer of lotion.

And the feeling suddenly dawn upon me.

I am contented now.

Life is good.

I never like to comment about my schedule or the workload because I know that there is always someone else out there that is working harder than me.

I rarely sleep but it's totally voluntary.

Catching up with everything and me going through life is so weird.

I never thought I'm capable of such actions.

But here I am.

Maybe this is me being high talking.

Feeling high from being loved by some many.

This is a really weird feeling as I am discovering it for the first time.

Or maybe it's just the feeling of certainty.

Certainty of what I want and where I wanna go.

That's why I keep telling myself that 'Now is not the time to stop'.

And this moment is brilliant.

I don't know where this is coming from.

Maybe from God, maybe from some uncountable source.

But here I am feeling weird and all.

The Shien now and the Shien a year back, I really don't have a clear ruler to measure how far I've go, how much I've grew.

But deep down, I know.

I know that there's something definitely changed inside of me.

And I am still trying to understand myself better than I did yesterday.

All I'm trying to say is that:

I am content now.

And I hope that it will stay.