It's Me

Ya, lately it's me that's the problem.
Man always said that I'm too 钻牛角尖.
Mei always said that I don't express my feelings easily.
And my mother also said that I always have this DIGNITY inside of me that makes me so unreachable.

All this three characteristic sums up to a VERY HEADSTRONG ME.

Lately, I have this one friend and this person always hurt my feelings unintentionally. I don't know if this person notice this but it's really eating me up. And what do I get?

I always come back home with the same results. I kept my feelings to myself then I let it out to my mother.

And when I got back home Tuesday night, I really wanted to blog about this person. I mean, I really have this urge to called this person: "Piece of Dog".

But you know what my mother said to me?
" I think it's a coward of you to do that. You could not face that person in school and you want to come back home and hide behind this blog mask."

What my mother said hurt but I know it's true.
That's why I choose to have two starting point this post.

The better starting version of my post:
I have met a very unpleasant person today.

You know?
There was once this one guy that I like. (All in the past)
And he have really good results.
So my friends were asking me to ask him for answer when we're having exam.
And that guy, he was really okay to show me his answer.

And I told him straight in his face: 打死我都不会向你低头.
Even he's a boy that I like, I show no mercy.

It's not dignity or pride that blind my eyes, it's the good grace to know that I can do anything myself.

Well, in the end, I choose not to see his paper.
Hah, and I regret the least in doing so.

So, I really want to say to this particular person who pissed me off almost everyday,
I FORGIVE YOU.