Hold On Tight!

Well, before I start my long ranting post about my past. I just want to say that all those name and things that I wrote below is with no intention of bragging or offending other people. Maybe the name I say already have their girlfriend or going on with their life perfectly but I'm glad to have them in my life once.

This whole week, oh man, where do I start? This is really a very long week. Huu... Okay, this week... I've been missing my past so much. I mean, real. First, my ex boyfriend came back into my life. Then my ex best friend came back into the picture. Then all those friends or guys in my past came back to my life too. 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡Oh my...

All the feelings that I thought that passed came right back to me this freaking week. Ahh!!! Hah! But as my usual CALM side, I'm able to "not go crazy". （￣▽￣）=３I began to miss all those things that I have or I have lost so so much this week. Really.

When I went to sing k with HueyYi today, she told me a very shocking news, and it's really very shocking to me. She told me that a guy once I have like and we have been very good friends, she told me that he(that guy) had once like me too in the past but now he already have a girlfriend. What the? ∑(ﾟДﾟ) Shit!

I have always stood by my decision all the time. And I don't even give a second thought after I have made a decision. I'm not saying that I'm regretting now, I'm just saying that I kinda miss them. Well, of course, when I turn back to look at the footsteps, I'm glad that I have made that choice. But I still can't help to think that "what if"?

Amanda, LiMin, Gary, OonKit, kh, WeiXuan, YenSen(and a few more), what if I said "Yes" at that time? Would we be together? Would we still be together? Would the story change? What if I have not made that decision?

I mean, I've been so stupid and blind in the past. I'm always letting go what's important to me. Ha. dumb right. I always don't know how much they mean to me until I lost them and it's all because of my choice. Hah, HEADSTRONG me. And now they have all leave me. Alone. Because I didn't appreciate them when I was 'having' them.

Anyway, I know that all these past feelings that's been coming back to me will go away real soon. I just want this post to be a memorable one. Hah, I STILL stand by my own decision. I'm not going to be trapped in the past once more, I'm only going to move forward. All these are real good memories to me.

p.s. Seeing s3 they all fight, I'm so grateful that me and ZhiYan did not end that way. I mean, we do quarrel, but we haven't reach the "I want to hit you in the face" that kind of quarrel. Hah, I'm really glad that our relationship is so much better than before. And I did apologize to him today. I'm mean I did did wrong. So I really do need to apologize at that point of time. Whoo... Words don't come easily ar. But everything is all right now. Hah, coz we're just one big FAMILY~ (*^▽^*)

p.s.s. TeckKiong was so MAN today when he was trying to broke off the fight. Whoo~~~ I like his courage and toughness so much. Hah~~~

p.s.s.s Got to celebrate Man's birthday today. Nah, her birthday is on 29th of August, we just celebrate earlier. The money I was going to use at Jo Jo Ju Jogo Jugo Jogoya... Okay, I'm don't know how to spell that freaking restaurant's name. ヽ(`Д´)ノThe money, I have spent all on MAn's present and birthday cake and that cream(Hahaha). That's why when they(s4 folks) ask me why I can't go to that Japanese buffet restaurant with them, I couldn't tell this reason out loud coz it would spoil Man's surprise. Ah... So no Japanese buffet lor... Anyway, it's worth it.

S4 folks, holiday already wor. Oh my... I'm going to miss you all so so much. Did you all have fun today in the class? We were like so out of control.

(Going to upload pics tomorrow).

My HOLIDAY~~~ Not looking back to the past anymore. But I'm glad that I've once have something special between you and me. I do miss you(you all) but it's really all past now. Letting go~~~ Moving ON now~~~

I'm not letting go anything that precious to me again. I'm not as dumb as I am in the past. 这次会抱得更紧~~~

Written by: One and Only ♪(*^ ・^)ノ⌒☆ Shien

(Make peace with your past, so it won't mess up the future)