Next Level? Maybe~

Up, up ,up! ヽ(`Д´)ノ Let's all move on to the next level. Come on! Know that everyone around me is moving on with improving themselves, is quite giving me pressure lately. Saw MayZhee and Man's blog, every one's growing up and I'm still where I am from way back. Lately I kept on thinking that should I be more mature and responsible? How should I put it in a nice way, I'm not a hypocrite but I'm couldn't stop to admit that I'm not that smart. Ya, I said it. I said it out loud. I'M NOT SMART. And frankly, I don't think that's anything wrong about it. I accept the way I am, coz I like myself the the way it is. And if you can't cope with me, just walk away, coz you can't change my thinking.

I may put myself a lot out there, but I do know that living my life like this is way better than pretending to be someone I'm not. Ya, I know I'm kinda slow and I'm okay with you all making fun of me coz I think that's the way you all express that you care for me. I'm all right with that.

Ya, seeing what Man said, I totally agreed that you can't be soft when you're a leader of your own pengawas group. How can you be weak when the rest of your team mate is looking up on you? And when you're president for your own society, don't you think I'm scare too sometimes? Knowing that that's many people is behind your foot steps and when you go wrong you have to be full responsible for it. There are times when I'm confused and others are asking questions, can you be so sure of yourself with your own decision knowing that what you do and what you said could change the whole meaning to everything? You can't be right all the time. You certainly couldn't say to them:" Hey, let's go on to the pave to failure that I'm paving." How can you be so sure of yourself?

But there's where the fun part is, I may be slow and dumb but I still have my family members and my best friends staying by my side. That's the beauty of it. I know that they'll sure push me and hold my back when anything go wrong. Always having a lending hand is so much more better than doing everything by myself. I know that I'm not perfect and it's okay to ask for help. It's not that I'm weak, it just show that I'm totally normal.

Going on to the next level has a whole new meaning for me today. Feel that I have gotten on a whole new level with Mei today, I had a secret and today I finally had the courage to tell her. When I told her that I felt that our friendship had gone up a level today, she said back to me :" What do you mean? Because we have the same taste in guys?" We laughed, but what she said was not the point. We both really know that what the two of us meant to each other. And yes, I do like Mei very much. I'm know what I'm feeling and I'm not crazy.

There was this one time I fought with mama, well it's a personal cause and mama cried. I cried too while arguing. I was standing in front of her, and suddenly she pulled me in and hug me while we're fighting. I cried even more in her arms. That scene was so powerful to me, it hurts the both of us more coz we're hurting each other. Coming to the end, I asked my mama:" Will we grow strong together?" And mama replied yes. Yes, I do believe in that too. After that day, I do felt that our relationship has gotten up a level.

Actually today I was intending to write something more funny and cheesy about Mei, but after seeing MayZhee and Man's blog, all of these thought just kept flowing out of my head. And sometimes, not every relationship is going up. Some went down and some even totally disappear from the 'level meter'. There's sure be time like this. But anything you had lost is not more than anything that's already in your hand.

Okay, today's Korean lesson is just all the country's name from yesterday.

1. NaRa - country.
2. HanGuk - Korea.
3. MiGuk - USA.
4. YeongGuk - U.K.
5. JungGuk - China.
6. TaeGuk - Thailand.
7. DaeMan - Taiwan.
8. HoJu - Australia.
9. IlBon - Japan.
10. Indonesia.
11. Singapore.
12. Malaysia.
13. InDo -India.
14. KaeNaDa -Canada.
15. DoGil - German.
16. PeuRangSeu - France.

10 to 11 is the same with English. Have fun~

I'm not vain but I like myself very much. Heck, I LOVE me! I like having my best friends and family members fussing to me about small matters coz it show that they care for me. I like how they're always protecting me in every single way. I like how they're taking care of me all the time. I like how they're always supporting me even though sometimes they don't agree with my decision. What could I be without you? I'm giving out love as much as I could now coz I receive lots and lots of love, I had tons to share. I may be childish, and I may not have improve myself from long time ago, but I know that I'll be going up the next level in life real soon, coz hey, what's the hurry? I'm growing strong with not just myself. ☆-( ^-ﾟ)v I love my damn beautiful ordinary life~~~

I'll protect you all with my life!